Thursday, November 12, 2009

HeLLooo ;)

How are y'all? I hope u're better than me... :( Middle School Life started okay, got worse and improved again. I found a whole lot of new friends, but their clique was founded ages before I joined in. I just came and bumped into their group. They were totally nice and after breaking apart from my old friends, it was really nice to have someplace where I could fell "home" again. I had a good friend (that turned into my best friend over the course of the year) in that group, but she got into a fight with the rest of the clique and it ended that the clique broke up. Until the end of the school year last year, we all got used to that idea, until summer camp. Somehow I thought I'd ruined everything, by talking to the so-called "bitches" (they are really slutty, but that doesn't mean I can talk to them) and was "accused" of betraying them because I talked to the "enemies" I backed away from a group, because I'd rather be a friendless loser, than with a bunch of friends who hated me :(
I went into the summer holidays leaving it all open... I didn't see any of them all summer, and thought 8th grade would be hell: no friends, and the ones I wanted to be my friends, probably hated me...
It turned out a bit better than that though: They kinda forgot about summer camp, or at least forgave me, so I was "in" the clique again. I was REALLY glad about that, but my best friend from 7th grade wasn't in the same class anymore, the only people from that group were two girls, that ALWAYS stuck together, and I was like "great, I haven't got any friends in this class" I really didn't want to break into their bonded friendship. During the beginning of the school year though, My old best friend found a "new" best friend and I had to find a new "friend" to hang out with. You have to have your own best friend in the clique, or else you're like the outsider...
Well, during the beginning of the year I became friends with the two girls from the clique that were in my class, and we kinda became the "trio". But like it always is with a group of three, there is always an odd one out: me -.-
One week, when one friend was sick, I bonded with the other friend and I felt happy again. Then the sick friend was in school again and the other one got sick. I bonded with her as well... But then both of them were in school again. And I was alone again :'(
They kept together again and I am trying to hang on to the group...
It has always been like that: I have to cing to the group and try to "stay in the boat" on my own. There's is no one to give me a hand and help me, never. Some moments I think: "Stop complaining Laura!! You have group of wonderful friends, with whom you can have loads of fun with!" But in other moments I lie in bed crying and thinking: "Why are they doing this to me? I want a friend to wait for me after classes and that I can call when I am down"
I try my best to be nice to everyone: I am the one that's always there and helps with the HW, I am always available when someone needs a shoulder to cry on, I always wait for them after classes!
But no one is ever there for me...
:'(
I have no clue how to get out of this drama? I've endured it for to long! I have the feeling that I have different friends every year, and I am sick and tired of having to go around and finding new ones. That's not fiar to other people too :(
Help me.
If you have any tips, or have been in a similar situation, pls contact me!!

xoxo

♥♥♥ LAURA ♥♥♥

xoxo

Posted by Laura at 10:23 PM

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

At the time I am VERY bored... I have no clue what to do and no one's on on MSN :(
My mum is doing something, my sis is at a friends and I've done every possible thing I can think of! I even went outside to do some biking for an hour, now I am sooo exhausted!! I'm probably just going to watch some videos on YouTube, which reminds me: I still have "What Happened in Vegas" to watch! :) I think I'll watch it and when I'm finished, hopefully more people will be on...
Okidoki, c ya!
You know you love me,
♥Lovely Girl♥

Posted by Laura at 7:27 PM

Friday, August 7, 2009

Heyo everybody!
No clue what I should write, just thought, I'd have to write something... Today was totally fun, singing SingStar with Kerstin! And the beginning of the week was awesome too... We also have new neighbours, Dutch people with two cute guys... Wonder if we could become friends... Let's see, I'll (try) to keep you up-to-date. Only two more weeks of holidays :( and then stupid 8th grade starts... I really have to get going with the summer reading... It's soooo stupid! I read like tons of english books and then we have to read a stupid reader about war and the american independence! SOOO the type of book I want to read in the holidays...NOT! I hat my school, it's really a retarded one...
Okay, enough dissing my school, BB
You know you love me,
♥Lovely Girl♥

Posted by Laura at 5:10 PM

Monday, August 3, 2009

HEJSAN!!!
That's Swedish and is a form of saying "hello"! I know, it's really weird, but I keep on saying it! :P
I know I know I could say how I forget to write, etc. but I can't change it, so what?!
Well I was in Sweden because it's SUMMER VACATION!!!! YEAH!!! Since 5 weeks already!! First Week was Camp week with all my Best Friends from school! It was sooooooo ah-wesome!!! Unfortunately Micaela got HUGE blisters that (so far I heard) still haven't healed :( (To Micaela: I hope they heal soon!!!)
Well then I was home for a few days and then I went off to Sweden!! It was sooo ah-wesome there!
The weather was quite good for Sweden and I went swimming a few times! After 2 weeks then, my parents put me on a boat to an island in Sweden, where my friend has a house and we had LOADS of fun!!! I biked a lot and we went swimming almost every single day!! Unfortunately I had to leave after 10 days :( and now I'm back in Germany to enjoy the next 3 weeks of my holidays!!! I hope all of you guys (and girlz :P) have fun with whatevva ur doin right now,
CYA

You know you love me,
♥Lovely Girl♥

Posted by Laura at 1:02 PM

Sunday, May 31, 2009

I will try to post more regularly, but I can't promise anything...
About halt an hour ago, friends that visited us over the weekend laeft for home again, and I am really sad, cause it was REALLY fun with them!!!!
Well, at least it was VERY sunny this weekend and I got a nice tan!!!!!!!! =D
Well, tmr is no school (YEAH) but I have LOADS of HW and have to study for exams on tuesday, so I won't really be enjoying myself...
Well, the rest of you, I hope you have LOADS of fun!!!!!!
You know you love me,
♥Lovely Girl♥

Posted by Laura at 10:11 PM

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Long time no post...
But A LOT has been happening... maybe that's why I never write, it would be way too much... Okay, here the main changes =D:
See, LOADS of stuff happening, also my I just got my own copy of P.S. I Loathe You (The Clique Series) and Lisi Harrison, the author autographed it!!!! SOOOO ah-wesome!!!!
Okay! Enjoy the nice weather (if you live anywhere near me =P)

You know you love me,
♥Lovely Girl♥

Posted by Laura at 6:07 PM

Monday, April 27, 2009

Okay, this is a post for just a certain few people (who don't even read this blog...)
I am just so down and sad right now, 'cause I hurt a certain person's feelings and I was down the whole evening 'cause everyone was so disappointed in me...
Okay, so here again:
I AM SORRY
I hope some of you will forgive me now...
G'night.
You know you love me, (or not)
♥Lovely Girl♥ (or not)

Posted by Laura at 8:45 PM

I AM SERIOUSLY BORED!!!!!!!!!
Currently, I am sitting in Computing Class in school and we just got free time, but still it is BORING.
We have to like make a presentation every week in like only 20 minutes!!!!
I find that seriously UNFAIR!!!
Okay. time to go!!!! (FINALLY)
BYE!!!!!!
You know you love me,
♥Lovely Girl♥

Posted by Laura at 10:58 AM

Saturday, April 25, 2009

First week of school after holidays...:
I didn't see a difference between this week and any other week...
Okay this weekend is pretty full, 'cause after tennis (for which I'm leaving in a few mins) My grandparents are coming over, to plant something into our beautiful garden (lets see if it's still beautiful afterwards) and then in the evening friends of my parents are coming and their kids, which are quite boring 'cause they are BOYS. (we will probabyl watch a boring boys' movie just to entertain them...)
Well tmr I have to be in church at 9AM 'cause I'm playing the flute at the Kommunion...(whatevva that's in english)
yeah and that's about it. I think tmr I will also visit my grandma.
Well, oh well,
You know you love me,
♥Lovely Girl♥

Posted by Laura at 10:17 AM

Saturday, April 18, 2009

OKay peoples!!!! I'M BACK!!!!
Hope you didn't miss me tooooo much =D
I was gone for a week in Belgium, since everyone's enjoying their spring break!!!
It was quite nice, but not much to talk about....
The most important is though that Monday, which is in two days!!!, I will see ALL my precious friends again and we won't be able to stop talking about our ah-wesome holidays!!!!!!!!!!
Until then I will watch GOSSIP GIRL and 90210 (Beverly Hills) which, FINALLY, started here in Germany!!!!!!!!!
I'm SOOOOOO excited, so if you're interested every Saturday from 4pm onwards on PRO7!!!!!
Check it out!!!!!
Okay, see ya!!!!!!!!!
You know you love me,
♥Lovely Girl♥

Posted by Laura at 7:08 PM